Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me. (Psalm 51:10)
I was feeling a bit low…well, maybe a lot low. Things were not coming together as I thought they should and my heart was getting heavier and heavier. Let’s face it, I was really discouraged!
OK Lord, I believe I’ve done what I can… the rest is up to You, I surrender it all!
That’s when I got the urge to open my closet. What an overstuffed mess. I started pulling things out; clothes I haven’t worn in this millennium, a box of papers I wrote in college 30+ years ago, bags from conferences I attended, my high school baton! I bagged up 10 garbage bags of clothes that I donated, I purged all those old papers into the recycling bin (but not before I read them…oh, memories); I filled the garbage container with knick-knacks and souvenirs from places I barely remember.
When I was done, not only did I feel lighter, I had a feeling of freedom. I didn’t feel weighted down anymore by things I’ve held on to for way too long. That’s when I was able to acknowledge that, like my closet getting a thorough cleaning, the Holy Spirit is there for me for the asking, to cleanse my heart of the garbage that collects over time only to weigh me down with negative thoughts and miserable feelings.
Thank you Lord for creating in me a clean heart and renewing a right spirit within me!